For our next adoption, I really wanted to document as much as I could so that we could look back and see how God has moved. I was thinking about starting when our adoption application was approved, but as I think back, it started much earlier.
For instance, back in April, our Chevy Blazer was breaking down (to the tune of $2,300!). We knew that buying a new car was our best bet, but we didn't know how we could do it. We started looking at mid-sized sedans and cross overs - the Blazer was a gas guzzler and we didn't want another. All of the cars we looked at didn't feel quite right. Through a series of events a few different people had mentioned vans. "No way," we thought! First of all, we only have one kid, second of all, we don't have enough money. Well, the more we thought and prayed about it, the more God revealed to us that we have to start thinking long term. If we are going to pay on this car for 6 years, we have to think about life in the long term. Suddenly, it made sense to buy a van. Not only did we find the perfect one, but through an online discount, we got it for $3,000 less than the asking price! I kept saying, "Now that I have a van, God can fill it with babies!"
Then we had housing issues. Should we stay in our condo or try to sell? Waffling back and forth, I had no idea until one Sunday when our pastor was preaching on having a servant's heart. He explained that one of the aspects of serving God was not waiting for perfection. Your circumstances will never be perfect enough - you should just do it! It was at that moment that I literally felt a stirring in my soul. I suddenly felt a great urgency to fill out our adoption application...so urgent that I almost felt like I needed to run out of the sanctuary and do it right then. We mailed it out that Thursday! (6/17/2010) Yes, we live in a 2 bedroom condo, yes our kids will have to share a room. Will it be hard? Yes! Will it be cramped? Yes! Does God know this? Yes!
I don't know what God has in store for us...it could be another 2 year wait - it could be a 2 month wait. All I know is that God is moving us toward a child right now. There is a baby out there who needs a home, who needs a Mommy and Daddy, and we feel that this is our calling. We are called to be parents to the orphan - as many as He will allow us to have.
We're scared, clueless, and questioning finances - but our certainty lies in Him. God is moving!